my mom is always there waiting to pick up the pieces.
I don’t know how I got to this point in my life.
How could I let myself turn into this?
I really don’t know.
I’m breaking myself down and I’m getting the worst of myself
Being told by my mom that this isn’t me and that I am much
stronger than this is seriously a reality check. I cannot keep
doing this to myself.
The worst feeling in the world is hearing my mom say how much
it hurts her to watch me destroy myself, and how I’m turning into
someone she doesn’t even know anymore, how I’m making my life
miserable and that I don’t deserve it. Momma reminds me that I’m a simple kind of girl with a big heart. I seriously think I’m the shittiest human being.
I feel so shitty when I see my mom cry, and especially knowing it’s my fault. I hate knowing that I hurt her because of what I do to myself.
I’ve become someone who shuts out everyone who tries to come into my life. I think everyone and everything is out to get me. I think the worst of people. I’m cold and bitter. I put on a front that makes me look like I’m a bitch just to intimidate people. I just can’t stand the idea of being rejected or being hurt.
I need to be stronger, the good kind of strong. I need to come to a place in my life where I am simply just a happy being again.
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